A Case of Mistaken Identity
When I was born, I came into this world believing that I had made a mistake, that I wasn't supposed to be here. I was early, premature and a part of me was saying, go back! You aren't supposed to be here yet. I started out here believing I was wrong. I did something wrong and something bad was going to happen. I was alone, vulnerable, in trouble and I couldn't fix it.
In the spiritual sense, I chose to experience separation from the Divine. In that moment of decision, immediately after that occurred, I believed I had made a terrible mistake. It was wrong. This was bad and I was in big trouble. Holy crap! I had to do something to fix this but I couldn't.
Both of these occurrences brought about the same result, the belief that I am wrong. This is wrong. This is really bad. I am alone. Bad things are going to happen and there is nothing I can do about it. This was, I am, a terrible mistake.
My life has been spent trying to fix this, trying to make it right. I've lived my life, built my life around these very basic false ideas from the beginning and reinforced them as I've lived my life. The extremely cool thing is that all of these terrifying beliefs about being separate, alone, wrong, in danger, bad, are based on a simple mistake. A mistaken thought which led to a mistaken belief which I've created the rest of my life on. A mistake! A simple mistaken thought! How amazing is that? And how simple!
The fact is this. I am... there is no label that can be given to what is indescribable in words.
In my world I can choose to be anything. I am good. I am bad. I am wrong. I am right. I am alone. I am not. I am... I am whatever I choose to be because I create it with my thoughts and beliefs.
Most of my life, I have created the wrongness, the fear, the terror, the aloneness.
But truth, I am never alone because the idea of separation is false. The idea that I am wrong, bad, or in trouble, that this is wrong or bad, is based on a false belief. A mistaken perception. I am always, we are always connected to each other. We are One. One with each other and One with the Divine. One Spirit appearing to live in separate bodies.
Fear or Love
Resistance or acceptance
Past/future or present moment awareness
Human Being
Who am I really? Really, I am both. Truly, I am Divine Spirit, complete, Holy Loved, and indescribable. Who am I here, in this world? I am the person that I have created for a million different reasons. But the most important reason, the only one that counts, is to wake up. I have created what I have created so that I can wake up to the truth; the truth of unity and light. The truth of who I really am. Inherent in that truth is that I am good. I am pure and innocent There is nothing wrong.
My commitment this year is to be more fully present in each and every moment. To feel what is, to be with what I am thinking, wanting, living, in the now. That is where my God is. That is where I connect with truth, with both the Divine and human aspect of myself. That is where I can accept who I am with the Divine Love and acceptance that I deserve. That is where I can be in acceptance of what is and experience this incredible journey whatever it is bringing me in the moment, knowing that I am safe and at peace. When I can do that, I begin to "feel" who I really am and I can "be" that here. The more I do that, the more connected I feel to the Divine and the more Joy I have in my life. The more I do that, the better base I have to create with. When I create from my mistaken perception of wrongness, I create fear and wrongness. When I create from the truth of goodness and peace, I create peace. I naturally extend the goodness that I am.
When I bring my attention to the present, I am bringing my attention to myself. My Higher Self and my human experience both of which deserve my attention, my presence, my Love. When I bring my attention to the present moment, I am standing with the Divine and that place is filled with a Love beyond my imaginings and a peace beyond understanding. That is a place that is beyond words.
So, I come to you with my truth, in hopes that you will find yours!
Happy New Year!
You are truly blessed just by being.
Enjoy these moments with all they bring!
Namaste
Gratitude
I have read that gratitude brings you very close to God. I believe that to be true. Being in a state of gratitude brings us into closer conscious connection with our higher Self. I believe that is where God resides. I also know that gratitude is an extremely powerful tool!
When I am feeling gratitude, and immersing myself in it, I am in a state of bliss. When I am feeling fear, sadness, depression, and I start writing a gratitude list, it has often pulled me out of that feeling, into a higher state of awareness. It has often created a miracle!
At one of the lowest points in my life, I was praying. Well, no, I was screaming and crying out to God to help me. I wasn't asking. I was demanding. I was telling him I needed him to show up in a big way. Beyond doubt, beyond reason, I needed to know he was here with me, and I needed his help. I knew then that I might not know what it looked like when I got that help, so I asked to be able to see it when it appeared. By this time, I was used to my requests being answer and later that evening I had the thought that my prayer hadn't been answered yet. That is when it hit me. Earlier that evening, gratitude started to appear. I started to see many of the wonderful things in my life that I Loved and was grateful for. I realized then that my prayer had been answered. I was seeing things from a different perspective and in a big way. I moved from a place of hopelessness and despair to a place of gratitude and joy. I was seeing the light in my life. That was a miracle for me!
So, is gratitude a powerful tool? Absolutely, do not doubt it. Instead, try it, practice it, use it. Rich German advises writing a gratitude list every morning and every evening. Do this, and miracles will occur.
What are you grateful for today?
Shame is an insidious dis-ease. It strikes at the heart, the very core, of who we think we are. It creates a steady uneasiness, anxiety, depression, fear, and even terror. It tells us we aren't good enough. That we are failing at life. That we are not a good enough mother, father, provider, student, partner, friend. It tells us that we are wrong. It tells us that we don't deserve to be happy, to be Loved. It tells us we are not worthy of good things. And most of us are living our lives from a place of shame without even knowing it.
What is shame? Shame is a thought, a belief, an idea. More specifically, it is a "false" thought, belief, or idea. Most of us were born into shame, told and shown, as soon as we entered this world that something was wrong with us. Eventually, we told it to ourselves and gave it the full power of our belief and our faith. It wasn't our parents fault because they believed it about themselves, so they had no choice but to teach it, to pass it on. It was our inheritance, from this world.
Fortunately, thoughts, ideas, beliefs, can be changed. Shame has been true for us because we believe it to be. But the truth, the absolute truth, is that we are as God created us. And God did not create shame. God created what he/she is; Divine, innocent, and unconditionally Loving. We can only create what we know and that is all that the Divine knows; pure, innocent, Love.
Before the idea of "being wrong," was God, in his Loving innocence. And he created us before this idea of shame existed. We are still that, innocent and pure. Nothing can change that. Nothing can change who God created us to be. Nothing can touch our innocence and purity. And that, is truly our inheritance, if we choose to accept it.
